All new everything

Well, it’s been a long while since blogging. I lost interest in most everything but my family. Later posts will explain and update. I decided to try to come back here but all new everything. A fresh start with a new purpose. I need an outlet and a place to share the great and not so great. My ideas and way of life. I hope you join me in this new journey…

Taking The Moment

I look at my children and wonder where time went. My oldest will be 8 soon and my youngest is trying hard to crawl. I can’t remember all of the pieces of their lives because of pain but I’m fully aware now. I get caught up in stupid things like TV and social media. I worry about non-important stuff when my kids are right in front of me growing up. I remind myself that they are only mine for a moment. In this very moment, my child is learning something either with me or without me. I see these kids as self thriving little people but they aren’t. They still depend on me. I have to stop and see them for the small children they are. This moment is all we have. In the next second, it’s history and I can’t get that back. This moment could be a good memory or a bad memory. You can decide which 99% of the time if you just take a moment to realize the impact. My children want more moments, they need more moment with just me. I’m going to be that mommy. I’m going to live for that moment with my children. I’m going to seize the small, tiny moment and make it special. Not only for them but for me too. I love my children more than life and would do anything to make them happy, sustainable people in this world. I may be giving up something I enjoy and my way of disconnecting but I think once I see the moments in clear details, I will no longer want to disconnect. I will engage in these tiny moments because they are gone so fast and one they are gone, that’s it. No do-overs. Take a second and look in your yard. You see a rock? My kids see a beautiful stone that has mystical powers and can build tall castles and defend them from evil sorcerers. All I see is a rock. I want to see the magic like they do. It’s all in the moment. Do I want to take that moment to see the mystical stone or just keep blowing off the rock?
I’m taking the moment…

Happy New Year’s

I want to wish everyone a happy new year’s from me and my family to you and yours!!!

I never make new year resolutions, nope never. But this year I am. I’m shocked, so is my husband, lol. It is short and sweet and very simple. It’s just one thing….

BE MORE PATIENT 

Sounds good, huh? The problem comes in when it has sub-catagories. It has the normal, I want to be more patient with my children, husband, parents etc… but what I want is to be more patient in my thoughts. They get so lost and I can’t seem to keep up because I have so much going at one time. I start neglecting my thoughts. Then I have to really concentrate on what it was I was thinking. It gets really hard to function sometimes because of that. I want to be more patient with my words. Things fly out of my mouth and I think, what the hell??? I can’t take my words back. They have done their damage and that’s it. I spend more time trying to “make it up” to somebody than if I had just been more patient with my words, it could have came out better. I want to be more patient with my actions. I don’t want to jump the gun and do something that later, I regret. I spend too much money, I know this. So I am dedicating a lot of my patience to budgting and trying to control my spending.
Last, I want to be more patient with my heart. I love unconditionally but I do fall out of love easily. People that should care about gets on every nerve in my body and makes things hard when we are all together. My heart has grown so hard that I have forgot what is important to me.
I think this resolution will be very hard and I hope, with your help, I can stay on track and see it through.
I want to know your’s no matter how little or big. You can leave it in comment or send it in a private email.
Thank you for your support and I look forward to knowing you more in 2012! HAPPY NEW YEARS FROM MY FAMILY TO YOURS!